You
are who you are for a reason.
You're part of an
intricate plan.
You're a precious
and perfect unique design,
Called God's
special woman or man.
You look like you
look for a reason.
Our God made no
mistake.
He knit you together
within the womb,
You're just what
he wanted to make.
The parents you
had were the ones he chose,
And no matter how
you may feel,
They were custom
designed with God's plan in mind,
And they bear the
Master's seal.
No, that trauma
you faced was not easy.
And God wept that
it hurt you so;
But it was allowed
to shape your heart
So that into his
likeness you'd grow.
You are who you
are for a reason,
You've been formed
by the Master's rod.
You are who you
are, beloved,
Because there is a
God!
A poem by Russel Kelfer.
For some reason
this words got stuck in my mind even though my heart is breaking.
My younger
sister (11 years younger than me) had a miscarriage this morning. It is her 3rd
miscarriage in a year and she was three months pregnant this time. As I went through this myself struggling to
get pregnant (that is why my children are so far apart) I can feel her pain as
my own today. My biggest wish is that I can put my arms around her and hold her
tight as there are no words to comfort her now. I am so far away from all my
family. I miss them terribly and I hate the fact that I cannot be there for
her.
I resent living
so far away from all. I miss them all the time. I should be there for them and
I simply CANNOT.
I got so many
scars at the moment that needs healing. So pain affects me badly, it throws of
my whole equilibrium. I always thought I was a strong person but the last few
years proved me wrong.
I think what I need is a soundproof padded room
so I can just get this scream out of my body that is stuck inside of me and
causing me not to breath properly anymore.
To get rid of this anger and to be able to rip this negative emotions
out of me will be so heavenly.
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